Freaked out
Wednesday 31 May 2006
I'm about four weeks away from leaving my job, to work on my own business.
TPC is getting bigger and harder to control, and I'm starting a brand new service as part of the company.
I'm freaked out because this means that for once I have to be a business person, and draw up business plans, arrange the accounting, organise all that admin stuff. I don't mind admin, but I'm like plenty of other artists out there: I just want to do it, I don't want to worry about the business side of things.
My family is pretty supportive, and so are my friends, but the financial set-up is resting quite heavily on my shoulders. While I'm not planning on becoming rich, I would like to work full-time on TPC; something that will be hard to do since I don't charge subscription fees.
What freaks me out is that a business company can set up this stuff so easily, and apply for bank loans etc. While my bank is nice and all, I doubt they'll readily hand over money to a person severely unready to work for herself, and to someone who knows nothing about accounting!
I've only got a few months to set up the business before I will be forced into a part-time job while the business builds. Will this perpetual focus on money and profits stress me out to the point of not being able to be creative anymore? Or will I have to pull out before it gets going because of lack of funds?
Either way... I'm really really worried right now.
I'm sure a zillion artists have said this before me: "Why couldn't I have been born a suit?"
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