So it's scary...

I finally got the gusto to really fight for what I want. I recently finished performing in Ignatians' critically acclaimed production of Les Miserables at the Schonell theatre and the experience was the most educational and exhilerating of my life. FIRST LESSON: I was the understudy for Eponine and that in itself challanged me as both a performer and a person. Admitting artistic jealousy is like breakfast - you feel the need for it first thing in the morning, and if you admit to it your whole day will be great, but if you skip it you end up sluggish, cranky and you won't stop thinking about it until you go to bed that night. I learned to deal with the concept, and cope with not always coming out on top. SECOND LESSON: The show made me realise that perhaps, despite all my committment and efforts, I was still afraid of completely going for my dream. Of course I am constantly auditioning and singing and dancing, and I even formed a theatre company, but I've always been to scared to attempt to crack into professional theatre - "sure, I'll find myself an agent... next week" Sound familiar? How about... "I really need new headshots but I don't have the money or the time." Or what about the classic, "I'm too young to audition for WAAPA/NIDA/VCA etc." RESULT: That used to be me. However, I don't want to stay that way. I'm 19, I'm eager to learn and I love performing so if I don't get into any of the 5 courses I've applied for (WAPAA acting and music theatre, NIDA acting and music theatre, VCA drama) I'm just going to move to Melbourne anyway. Some people say I'm wreckless but why not? Why not now while I'm young without a family or a loan or anything to weigh me down. I am ready to be the amazing performer I know I am and share that experience with the world. So I'm going to use this blog to follow my journey from being Rhiannon - ameteur artist to Rhiannon - professional performer. If you're reading this, feel free to offer me advice and your opinions; I know what I want to be and where I want to go, and I will definitely appreciate any nudge I get.